So basically the restaurant i worked at closed down due to construction issues and the owners family issues. Basically i got to look for a new job before i die of boredom. The restaurant i worked at before we ended up closing participated in a competition against all the restaurants in town. Basically it was wine dinners , all with a theme inspired by a country. We got south africa and well guess what ... WE WON. We won 3/5 categories Best Entree Best Dessert Best Team and Chef <_< And we got 2nd place with best Second Course as well. Basically i worked with some of the best here and was taught everything i know from my very first chef. Not that i dont have any formal training because i do. Now i go around town handing in my resume ( which has some good qualifications ) especially now since everyone knows our restaurant kicked ass during the event , and i just cant get myself past the front door without being judged or judging the place so critically. Either they look at me see i am young and think im a little kid who doesnt know squat , or i end up not handing in my resume after either feeling timid , or feeling the place isnt worth it. I want to be taught by a good chef once again , someone who can give me more experience. I ended up giving up a sous position 1 week ago after a restaurant i worked at had horrible conditions. No equipment , dirty , small as a shoe box , no sanitation , the staff wasnt reliable and they hardly knew how to cook. Everything was pre-packaged and portioned and was just basically thrown into the fryer. It was by far the worst place ever , they even promised to change but it wasnt worth it. Left after 2 days. Today i attempted to hand out some more resumes , but it wasnt easy , i kept getting cold feet.. Like seriously <_< what is wrong with me. Im usually very assertive but now i feel less conifident , the restaurant i worked at closed down after 5 months of me working , i feel like i could have learned more and what i havent learned will strike me out during new stages and job interviews. Its so frustrating find a new job , especially when you are picky about where you work ( I like to work at places where i can see myself eating at ) . Anyone else ever get so frustrated in finding a job. Im just feeling down , lazy , and frustrated <_< i want to work , but i want a good work enviroment, is that too much to ask? I dont care about the money i make , i care about the food , but the restaurants here are focusing more on their money and less ont he clients food if you catch my drift.