I have 3 weeks left of my culinary classes. But I have to do a one month of externship, which comes out to be 180 hours. At this point now, I have lost interest in my culinary dream. My last class was a business class, which sucked. This last class I'm in is a ACF Competition class. I have no interest in competing. When it comes to food, I'm not a competitive person. I believe it takes the fun and art out of cooking. I hate guidelines, I like a free for all. I consider myself an abstract cook. And now that I have this externship coming up, I don't wanna be bogged down by crazy hours and ever changing schedules. I'm not like that. I have spent my past 13 years working a 9 to 5 job. I want to stay sane, have a life, go out with friends, go for road trips on weekends, and not build a life around pleasing some chef who is high above me. I love to cook, just not someone else's dime. I don't know what to do?