since reading and posting here I've become rather appalled by just how utterly untrained I am. what skills I have I picked up in the few kitchens I worked in, and from reading and television...so I've just gone merrily on, turning out the eats without giving much thought to it as long as the result tasted good. i'm not looking for a career; i'm looking for a center to what i do, or at least a structure to base that on. one of the things i want is FLAWLESS BASIC SKILLS. keeperofthegood pointed me in the direction of escoffier (which i had somehow convinced myself was no longer available on this planet) and so i'm busy trying to hook up to a copy of that-they don't have it at the library; people keep stealing it! so i'm bidding online. everyones suggestions, musings, directives, ideas and etc are welcome and needed!!! books? videos? cd roms? other forums......?